More Crappy Childhood Fairy Open Practice: How to Cope with a Corrupt Judge Like Lee P. Rudofsky
A few days back, I shared a method of writing about fears and resentments in order to release them. Read about the practice that I learned on a website called The Crappy Childhood Fairy on my previous “How to Cope with a Corrupt Judge Like Lee P. Rudofsky” here.
In the spirit of CoDA (Co-Dependents Anonymous) I am sharing my practice from this morning with you, my readers.
CoDA is another helpful tool to deal with difficult people like narcissists and try to find what in us is attracting those relationships. I went to meetings and a home group for about three years. I wish I did not stop when I was feeling “cured”. It may have saved me from being in a six-year relationship with an alcoholic, fraudster who brought prostitutes into our home. (My current husband is a dream come true. We can learn and change and find a happy ending.)
My handwritten note, above, says:
“Fear I did not get enough sleep last night. I fear I will be tired all day. I fear I will not be able to do my court work. I fear my anxiety will increase and I won’t be able to fall asleep tonight. I resent PRA and Judge Rudofsky for making a simple case so difficult by lying and colluding. I resent not having a fair and honest judiciary. I fear people with positions as judges will force me into bankruptcy. I fear that my body and mind won’t carry me through building up my retirement fund again. I resent that I have been a hardworking, productive member of society and will spend my old age in poverty.
“I am now ready and humbly ask that you, God, remove these fears and resentments. I pray to know your will for me today, and have the strength to carry it out.”
Now it is time to ritually release these resentments and fears by soaking the paper in water, wadding it up and throwing it out.
I suggest you write your practice by hand, instead of typing on a computer keyboard. First, handwriting is said to access a certain part of our brains that does not happen with typing. Second, I would hate for you to have to smash your computer with a baseball bat or throw your cell phone in the toilet to accomplish the ritual release.
How I Cope with a Corrupt Judge Like Lee P. Rudofsky of The Federal District Court
My most popular post over the past year was “How I Cope with a Corrupt Judge Like Susan K. Weaver of Arkansas”.
One of my readers who is now a close friend led me to another mental health tool since I wrote that post. In lieu of the Doc of the Day, I am sharing a link to the website that teaches this coping device, “The Crappy Childhood Fairy“. The basic program is free.
This is a way to deal with fears and resentments by writing and meditation. (Meditation to me is akin to prayer.)
For example, I might write:
I feel resentment toward Judge Lee P. Rudofsky. I fear that he will continue to pretend to miscomprehend my arguments and testimony in order to write orders that look legitimate on their face. I fear the justices on the court of appeals will also justify showing partiality. I fear the work that is required to appeal will be a waste of time. I resent attorneys David Mitchell of Rose Law Firm, Jed Komisin and James Trefil of Troutman Pepper. I fear they will use Judge Rudofsky’s political and ideological bias to the advantage of their client, a debt collector that is notorious for using illegal or unethical litigation tactics. I fear they may force me into bankruptcy and ruin my outstanding credit. I fear that there is little justice to be had in this once great nation any longer.
Since no one will read the handwritten note before I douse it in water, wad it up and throw in the trash, I get a little more personal, too.
Next, I write my prayer to God. “I am now ready and humbly ask that you, God, remove these fears and resentments. I pray to know your will for me today, and to have the strength to carry it out.”
After the writing and symbolic release ritual, which could be burning the notes, but wetting them seems less dangerous, I sit on my yoga mat and meditate. I use the mantra “release”. Honestly, I suck at meditation. My mind always wanders back to the torment Judge Rudofsky and the Three Henchmen put me through and all the work I need to do to stop them. But, when I notice, I come back to the mantra. “Release.”
I’ve only used this technique for a week. My outlook is improving. I see that some of my fears are about losing the wonderful things I have in my life now. So, it makes sense to appreciate and enjoy those things now. And it helps me to look at the job God gave me as a gift rather than a burden. My all time most popular post was written the day the Commission on Judicial Performance made a “severe” public admonishment against Court Commissioner Alan Friedenthal, the liberal Democrat version of Judge Lee P. Rudofsky, based upon my complaint. I wouldn’t trade that victory for a million bucks. (It saved others from suffering the way my children and I did at the hand of the corrupt judge.)
I hope you gain as much from the practice as I have. If you want to share your experience privately, email bohemian_books@yahoo.com. Otherwise, feel free to comment below.
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